Well fuck it. Also camping and other things.

I'm feeling mopey right now. It's pretty dumb, but it's what I do. I'll get over it, I'm sure.

So I spent the last two days camping with those people I mentioned in the last post. I'm very fond of all of them, so it was a good time. The park we were staying in was having some themed weekend, so we ended up watching The Lion King in the visitors center one night. It was pretty boss. I got burned. That's not really a huge surprise. I've never been able to manage the whole sun-and-sunscreen thing very well, either erring on the side of too much protection or too little.

I spend a lot of time thinking about a lot of things, largely regarding truth and conduct and compensation and understanding and perseverance and acceptance and effort and people and love and pretty much everything else. If you've ever found me difficult to have a simple conversation with (ie spoken to me in the past fifteen years or so), it's because there's a fairly constrant stream of background noise going on in my head. Today it contributed to my being mopey. Tomorrow maybe it will pull me right out of it, or maybe not at all. We'll see.


Lastly: Dinosaur Office might just be my new favorite thing. Check that shit out.

"Love," in (very slightly) more detail

So I realize that last post couldn't have made much sense.

It was posted from a handheld gaming device from a grocery store of wonder. The lack of body text was due to a lack of time and also limited functionality of the device's Internet browsing. I settled for a nice-sounding title and left it for later (now, except I think that's all the expounding I'll actually do).

So I'm in Maryland for a little longer. Two weeks. In that time, I'll have the house to myself (after Friday), and will probably only interact with other humans if those humans are Tegan, Hope, Allison and/or Sean, all of whose company I enjoy, and all of whom I've been spending a bunch of time with lately.

Sean is a...interesting subject in my life. There are a lot of details to it I won't go into. In any case, I'm fond of him.

Tonight I'm going to Balitmore to help my cousin move and to celebrate her birthday. It'll be swell, I'm sure.

Lately I've been playing PC Oblivion on the TV through an HDMI connection. That essentially only means I've been playing the console version, but I still feel special, so shut up.

That's all.

Love

Not that I've ever been good at doing things on time (or at all?)

I have an 8-page paper due Friday afternoon. I also have to pack by then, and clean up the apartment a little. The last two I feel okay about, but the paper...I was finally hit with a groove I can work with tonight. I'll pursue it tomorrow. I would have done a lot of work today, but I was asleep for most of the daylight, and distracted for all of the night. Whoops.

I'm going to bed now. I don't know that I'll manage to go into detail about any of those things I mentioned. I will mention that I got my new phone, but have yet to activate it, and last night I had a very satisfying au revoir visit with Andy. There was a trippy sushi place involved. It was neat.

So that's something, I guess. I'm doing pretty good lately. Star is in two days. I just have to write this paper.

See you.

Oh, right. The blog.

So I really liked doing that daily posting, but I stopped because I knew that all I was really going to talk about was Andy, and it was all going to be a bunch of whining drivel that would make him uncomfortable to hear, and so made me uncomfortable to post. It was just a lot of stupid things I would ramble about.

Now I'm much better regarding Andy, so I'm comfortable posting here again. Maybe I'll list details? Probably not. It's finals week, by the way. Karate skills final in two hours, and then I have to write an 8-page paper to turn in by Friday, and then I go to Star Island. Maybe I've mentioned it. I have plenty to do this week, so I probably won't do any real posting, and I won't be available next week. We'll see what happens.

I'll list some things of note so I can touch on them later, plus a brief summary:

-phone: mine died, in sort of a curious time. I get a new one on Wednesday

-Isaac: Look up Sternberg's triangular theory of love, and look into an intimacy-only relationship

-Andy: The whinny fanboy Merrill is no more. I like Andy a lot, but we won't be anything. He's a friend.

-sex: I've been really into it lately.

-paradigms: I've been trying to be a more reasonable person. Andy related. I sort of used him as a catalyst for it. It's going alright.

-other various boys: There are two on this list. There are two other ones in my life I have some romantic touch with. I'll see both of them in the next few months. We'll see what happens.

So that's that. I'll catch you later.

I'm going on hiatus, I think.

It was fun. Maybe I'll be back.

DIDN'T POST BECAUSE I'M LAZY

But lots of things happened that were interesting. Quick detailless recap of the day:

-good date

-dude on the bus

-good classes

-other stuff?

-goodnight

Whee.